I will always want myself. Always. Darling, I wrote myself a love poem two nights ago. I don’t know where you get this from but I am whole; woman who grows flowers between her teeth. I tend to my garden. I dance myself out of pain. You think women like me crawl for pity? You ever seen the offspring of a lion eat grass? This wanting of myself gets stronger with age. I host myself to myself. I am whole.Ijeoma Umebinyuo
They say you can’t ever go back home…but that’s not true. Home is always there. Arms spread wide. Waiting. It is rarely home that has left us…we’re usually the ones who’ve changed.
He only loves me loudly
If there were a mountain,
he would shout his love a million times from its highest peak
If there were a water tower,
He would deface it in my name
With my face
Adorn it anew with words of adoration
But in this city of concrete and glass, there is neither mountain nor water tower in sight
So he settled for the subway station
Taps the man sitting beside him sheepishly and points
“that’s my woman”
With the sincerity and gentleness of a man overwhelmed by his good fortune
Sometimes, if I am lucky,
Only if I am lucky
My eyes will catch him first,
His pursed lips prepared to shout “I love you” at full force
And my kiss will intercede
Capture his words like a willing prisoner
Breathe deep his elation
His giddy innocence
I always play shy and surprised when I don’t catch him in time
I nuzzle into him and shield my sly giggles from the disapproving faces of our fellow passengers
I love you
I love you
I love you
He whispers into my ear
Lifts my face to look into it
And although I already know,
It’s always nice to hear
tell the earth that i could not hold you
tell the ocean that i pushed you westward
tell the wind it was
my footsteps, night after night,
that frightened the warmth from our bed
tell the sun it was my salty kiss,
my lips that spoke too loudly,
that made you thirst for something other
fill this universe with the reasons why you must go
flood its shorelines with your well crafted excuses
i have heard enough already
i cannot hear your voice
without trembling again
find some other woman to hold on to
and leave me to write this poem in peace
America is for you
Lost in the wonder of this world, bright and new
is for you too
America is for you
Even when you are
made to feel ashamed of your hue
Remember my sweet
Whatever you do
America is for you too
At times it may leave you questioning, confused
This America is for you too
Your claim to it is as solid as theirs
No matter what they wish were true
Yes, America is for you too
Never bow your head in shame
Do not cower when they call you names
You belong here
Your roots are deep
You grew from this land that so many seek
Space and fortune
Time and chance
All came together in a provident dance
All conspired to give America you
In this era
In this space
In this time
In this place
You breathe one breath
In joy and strife
You make America, America
It owes you its life
Your fates are interlocking
pieces of one
A beautiful tapestry,
woven and spun
This place called America
Battered and brave
Was not fully America
Until the day you came
Savor it too
This glorious America belongs to you
– By SOO
Only when I’m hungry
is not really enough
you see, only when I’m hurting
only when the world crushes all of my dreams
only then do I look for you
wait on answers before I move
like those books say I should
hands clutching tightly
as it all just slips by
it’s at those times I need you
and want you by my side
but when its –
and parties to go to
warm smells of delicious
and music to dance to
people to kiss
lovers to hold on to
another year set aside for singing
when its –
arms flung open wide for loving
when dreams are all revealed to me
and destinies all fulfilled through me
when I have
more than enough even
plenty of all the right things
none of all the wrong things
when it’s all here
like I’d hoped for
I forget that you’re still in it
or in thunder, if needed
jealous lover, you call me back
reminding me that you’ve never left my side
When the people call Earth “Mother,”
they take with love
and with love give back
so that all may live.
When the people call Earth “it,”
they use her
consume her strength.
Then the people die.
Already the sun is hot
out of season.
Our Mother’s breast
is going dry.
She is taking all green
into her heart
and will not turn back
until we call her
by her name.
we loved as if the gods
had announced only to us
that the sky would fall while we slept.
thinking only of pleasure
and I knew I would not grieve
if life should end as you held me.
The sun slid silently
into our room
kissed our faces
and lay softly
in our love bed.
The sky had not fallen.
The earth had not disappeared.
We were alive
to love again.
By Gloria Wade Gayles
To my daughters, I need to say:
The one whose love lifts its head to you despite its broken neck.
Whose body bursts sixteen arms electric to carry you, gentle, the way
old grief is gentle.
Love the love that is messy in all its too much,
The body that rides best your body, whose mouth saddles the naked salt
of your far gone hips, whose tongue translates the rock language of
all your elegant scars.
Go with the one who cries out for his tragic sisters as he chops the winter’s wood, the one whose skin
Triggers your heart into a heaven of blood waltzes.
Go with the one who resembles most your father. Not the father you can
point out on a map,
But the father who is here. Is your home. Is the key to your front door. Know that your first love will only
Be the first. And the second and third and even fourth will unprepare you for the most important:
The Blessed. The Beast. The Last love. Which is, of course, the most terrifying kind.
Because which of us wants to go with what can murder us? Can reveal to us our true heart’s end and its thirty years spent in poverty?
Can mimic the sound of our bird-throated mothers, replicate the warmth of our brothers’ tempers? Can pull us out of ourselves until
We are no longer sisters or daughters or sword swallowers but, instead,
Women. Who give. And lead. And take and want
Because there is no shame in wanting.
And you will hear yourself say: Last Love, I wish to die so I may come back to you new and never tasted by any other mouth but yours.
And I want to be the hands that pull your children out of you and tuck them deep inside myself until they are
Ready to be the children of such a royal and staggering love. Or you
I am old, and have spent myself on the courageless, have wasted too many clocks on less-deserving men, so I hurl myself at the throne of you
And lie humbly at your feet.
Last Love, let me never roll out of this heavy dream of you.
Let the day I was born mean my life will end where you end.
Let the man behind the church do what he did if it brings me to you.
Let the girls in the locker room corner me again if it brings me to you.
Let the wrong beds find me if it brings me to you.
Let this wild depression throw me beneath its hooves if it brings me to you.
Let me pronounce my hoarded joy if it brings me to you.
Let my father break me again and again if it brings me to you.
Last love, I let other men borrow your children. Forgive me.
Last love, I vowed my heart to another. Forgive me.
Last Love, I have let my blind and anxious hands wander into a room and come out empty. Forgive me.
Last Love, I have cursed the women you loved before me. Forgive me.
Last Love, I envy your mother’s body where you resided first. Forgive me.
Last Love, I am all that is left. Forgive me.
Last Love, I did not see you coming. Forgive me.
Last Love, every day without you was a life I crawled out of. Amen.
Last Love, you are my Last Love. Amen.
Last Love, I am all that is left. Amen.
I am all that is left.
I could spend my whole life trying to earn favor, earn love.
I could search the world,
ravish the depths of my heart
for some shred of worthiness,
but there is none to be found.
I could never hope to be worthy of the love that is shown to me…worthy of the grace that’s been given.
I know my own tendencies towards sin, my own lust after things of this world.If not for God, I know I would be the worst of sinners. I know I have it in me.
If you see any goodness in me,
if you see any worthiness in me,
any loveliness at all,
know it is because of the loveliness of Christ